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Peace in the vortex of chaos

michellelk — Mon, 15 Jul 2013 20:09:30 +0000

We can plan and plan, make sure that everything is ready, organize exact… And then the ILLUSION of control is shattered … When “Life” shows up and reminds us that we have no control. Then “Life” has the audacity to ask us, “why would you WANT control? What is so creative and interesting about CONTROL??”

Nothing… Absolutely … Nothing is interesting and creative about CONTROL.

So, after chatting with overseas “cyclist, author, researcher, swimmer, professor” person who reminds me, “if it’s not fun… Why do it?” I look into my wallet and see that which remains the same, never changing… love, international coin and a bit of luck. I always have and always will carry tokens with me that inspire, remind and make me smile… While traveling, spinning, dancing in the vortex of chaos.

Breathe….

Thank you Y.P.

Good night…Sweet dreams. XO

Needs and desires…

michellelk — Mon, 15 Jul 2013 04:52:09 +0000

Wherever one travels in the world or language spoken… Fundamental human needs; food, safety, shelter are quite universal. I think sex toys and snacks need to be added to the list… They too seem to be quite universal… “Desires”

Good night…Sweet dreams. XO

Chicago reflections…

michellelk — Sat, 13 Jul 2013 04:48:50 +0000

OUR perspective of perfection…us, big city, high fashion…intertwined.

Good night… Sweet dreams XO

Adventure seeker… Please apply within…

michellelk — Fri, 05 Jul 2013 04:42:36 +0000

4th of July… a holiday of independence, freedom and a voice of the people….I am feeling an overwhelming sense of freedom and independence from this incredible machine and the the voice in my head is screaming, “turn the key… Just f—–g do it!”

The question BeBe the biker babe(owner of bike) asks herself when getting on her bike, “today… am I intelligent, talented, charming or hateful?? Choose!”

“Ballsy and courageous” came to mind as I sat on that sleek black leather seat and adjusted my sunglasses…a self-proclaimed adventure seeker hits the road…

Bebe and Anthony… Thank you!

Good night… Sweet dreams. XO

Linked by an invisible thread…

michellelk — Fri, 21 Jun 2013 19:01:08 +0000

The eyes tell a story that is not told with words. When there is a story of silence, distance, miscommunication, joy, elation, confusion, fear, awe, it can be told if you want to see. We are amalgamated to other humans creating unbreakable connections and links that are most often obvious through family ties, community, jobs, beliefs. Then there are those connections, a binding of invisible thread that can’t be explained, that bring two separate entities together…to merge, unite, meld, fuse, combine, secure, fasten…slowly slowly over time, quietly, year after year, patiently…creating something stronger than each entity, separate, individually. The thread, for both is the serendipitous inspiration for strength, balance, growth….and….sometimes…silliness! The eyes of another can be the mirror reminding you who you are, when you forget. I will remind you…please remind me.

Good night…Sweet dreams… XO

Sundays that make a difference

michellelk — Fri, 21 Jun 2013 04:49:44 +0000

6/9/2013…coffee was made for me with expertise…time stopped…I held my breath…I heard my own heart pounding…blissfully peaceful.

6/16/2013… 2 generations collide…dancing and singing… A first…time is racing…I couldn’t hear anything…blissfully thunderous.

Two very different Sundays, both priceless. Both leaving me wanting, just one more minute.

Good night… Sweet dreams… XO

The PERFECT sunglasses…

michellelk — Wed, 01 May 2013 20:44:01 +0000

Going, going, gone… The day fades into dusk. My eyes are very sensitive to light, I see better at night. These magical rosé colored lenses allow me to look directly into the sun, enjoying the sunset. Yet, I hear my mothers’ voice,”don’t look directly into the sun you will burn your retinas!” That very sentence has fueled years of tireless searching for the PERFECT sunglasses, that would allow me to do just what she said I shouldn’t or couldn’t…. Opening my eyes wide, seeing everything clearly without squinting through a sliver of blinding light. The under-current theme of “shouldn’t, don’t, couldn’t,” imposed or shared by others in my early years is what has developed my curiosity/strong suit of “finding the answers, solving the problem, getting the facts.”… To my mothers’ dismay… When I trumped her “mother card,” giving her the facts of why I could and should! Now, that we’ve BOTH grown up, I am asked, “could you look this up?”…. How is any of this related? Determination, tenacity, passion, drive, curiosity, NO, sometimes wanting to prove someone wrong…opens up new ways of doing family, business, love, friendship, life…with eyes wide open and actually SEEING the world you live in. Funny, how my son has the SAME desire to find the … perfect sunglasses!

Good night…Sweet dreams XO

Happy 1st Birthday…

michellelk — Fri, 19 Apr 2013 00:06:57 +0000

One year ago today, April 18, 2012… Media Goddess R.K., said,”just do it, you’ll love it!” She was correct and I thank her from my heart for kicking my tushy over the “blogging ledge” and throwing NUMEROUS variations of lipgloss, lipstick, lipchap…as she understands that lip____ is “my cape” for all magic that I intend to create on earth. Sunday is my birthday and I intend to reflect, eat cake, celebrate with family and be with myself…presently. 2013 is the year of patience, grace, passion and courage. I pick a word on my birthday to live into for the year. Last year it was…Courage. This year it is PASSION! I recently spoke with a friend in her 6o’s that said, “Passion begets energy!” If you are passionate about something, someone, life, an interest, a cause…it is that passion that creates, is the source of your infinite energy. May I have the courage to live passionately! Thank you to all who have read and viewed the blog.

Good night…Sweet dreams XO

Any act of LOVE is never a mistake or a waste…

michellelk — Mon, 25 Mar 2013 03:06:17 +0000

אהבה = LOVE….Artist, Robert Indiana created both this “love” sculpture on the grounds of the Israel Museum(Jerusalem) and the one on the grounds of The Indianapolis Museum of Art(Indiana). Love is love no matter what language, distance, age, gender, continent, culture, time, expression. A place I love, both here and there.Good night…Sweet dreams XO

Mammogram = pulling skin from my ass

michellelk — Thu, 10 Jan 2013 21:44:12 +0000

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I am always amused and intrigued by “self imposed rules.” Those rules that we impose on ourselves, our lives to keep us safe, happy, engaged and healthy. Often the rules change when we see over time what works and what doesn’t.

Today I went for a mammogram, one of my many “self imposed rules” regarding preventative health, the “Take care of the girls and the girls will take care of you,” rule that will never change. Jan had to pull skin from my ass to have flesh to squish and evaluate. “Lean into the glass plate,” she says. “I am,” I squeaked, not breathing.

Prevention = me, Jan, 2 glass plates, “the girls” and my “self imposed rules.